Moyo talk with Patiz

Better Be Alone **They Didn't Betray Me, They Revealed Themselves** Some people wonder why you have a small circle. Or no friends at all. In most cases, betrayal is the reason. You trust someone so much, then they break it. You fight for them, but they can never fight for you. You grade them as your close sister, your brother. Your "besty". To them, you mean nothing. You are not even in the list of their pals. Ouch. It truly pains. You become their puppet. You are just in their circle for their benefit. Believe me, all these breaks the fragile heart. Trust is all gone. The worst part is: you already know the reality, but they still act as angels. Fakeness. All this makes one withdraw from that space. It forces you to build your own circle. Oneself and one's thoughts. Period. Remember, once beaten, twice shy. And a broken glass can never be repaired. Better be alone. > I am not antisocial. I am anti-fake. And that is why my circle is small.

It's not a doubt to say that living with strict parents is somehow a survival life. > > As a girl, seeing your agemates going out and having so much freedom to make their own decisions without being forced can be painful. > > To be realistic, parents try to be strict but I guess it's their way of showing love for us. > > Being under strict parenting has both advantages and disadvantages. Yes, it instills discipline in us and other moral values. So you grow up being that "good girl." > > But wait — being a nice girl every time is tiresome. You are human, you can make mistakes. On the contrary, whenever you find yourself in a mistake, you merely want the world to open up and swallow you. > > Why? This simply shows the fear that lives in you because of strict parenting. > > My dear, it is life. You cannot run away from it. They are your parents, they love you. Just obey knowing that someday you will be free. You will make d...

The middle Child of Personality : Am an ambivert. People are confused about me. Some say I am fierce and quiet. My close friends say I talk too much. Both are true. Some days I wake up jovial and outgoing. I find it easy to associate with everyone — that's my extroverted side. But the next day, I become quiet. I only want silence. No attachments. I just want my own space — that's my introverted side. And yes, judgment is there. Some say I have a bad attitude. That I hate people. Some say she is strange. And others withdraw from my space. Sometimes it feels confusing. I feel like being alone again. I try to vibe with others, but it fails. When I stay in crowded places for a long time, I actually get drained. This forces me to withdraw. If you are one, don't panic. If truly you cannot reciprocate the energy, then stay back and observe. If they judge you, you owe nobody an explanation. When they criticize you, let them think as they wish. That's you. An ambiver...

** Losing a Parent Young: A Pain Only Those Who Wear The Same Shoes Understand** Losing a parent young is something painful. Nobody understands it unless they have worn the same shoes. Specifically a mother — when a child loses a mother, the child loses a map. The pain is unbearable. Yes, the child might not understand it all at the moment of loss, but as time goes by, it starts to hit hard. So hard. At times you will find them crying all alone. We try to comfort them. But wait, can that fade away the sharp, piercing feeling in the heart? Absolutely no. The child recalls moments they spent with their dear mother. The cracking of jokes. The teachings she gave. How they were gently pampered and shown love. Who can replace all that? Surely, nobody. And what about losing a dad? This also hits so hard. Losing the breadwinner. The strength of the family. It is an incurable pain. You try to stay strong, to adapt to a new life. A life of struggle, perhaps where the mother is jobles...

 > Real life is not always loud. Sometimes it teaches quietly. > Lately I have learned that not every day has to be perfect to be meaningful. Some days just surviving with peace in your heart is enough. > I am learning to take life one day at a time, to breathe, to trust the process.

> Hi, I'm Patiz. I started Moyo Talk to share real life thoughts — the heavy days, the hopeful days, and everything in between. This is a safe space for honest talk. Karibu

Welcome to Moyo talk > This space is about real life — the quiet thoughts we keep inside, the hard days, the small wins, and the journey of becoming who we are meant to be. > > Here, I will share honest thoughts about issues of life, heart matters, and finding light even when things feel heavy. > > If you have ever felt alone in your thoughts, this is for you. You are not alone. > > Thank you for being here. Let's walk this journey together.